24th April, 2012
The day I can't forget......
The day I saw the drops of tear.....
The day I experienced the love of a mother....
I am Damn sure, you don't know how much your mother loves you till you have as experience to know about that.
You won't agree with what I said now, but just think.
Did you ever came to know that your mother loved this much? you will have an answer to this question only after you face an experience.
I have an answer to this question.
Yes, I can answer because I had one experience.
Its my policy, if any one invite me for the function I will agree to come. As I expected my plus two mate invited for her marriage. I didn't tell I can't come. When she confirmed about the date i was little confused, coz that was a working day. It was only one month i joined in info park and it was very difficult for me to get a leave. But I didn't say no. I decided to go for the previous day of her marriage.
On 24th morning, before going to the office I told mom, that night I will go to Ankamaly to attend a marriage function. She agreed to that. But things changed to worse situation. That day sky was clear, so i took my Aviator to office. I was on morning shift. I left from office at 6 pm. It almost take 45 min to reach my home from office. Besides there was heavy traffic near Alwaye Bypass. After facing that too, I reached home at 7 pm. Sky become dark.
As am very tired, after having a snack and tea I went for a bath. Then the time become 8 pm. In the morning I planned to go by bus for attending the marriage. Being 8 pm, I thought to go in Aviator. I had one gift for her. Time is also lapsed for packing the gift too. Gone straight with no other stops on the way. Time become 9.15 pm when I reached her house. Actually I had only vague idea about the location. But I was able to manage to find it even if I wrongly entered to another marriage function at first.
When I entered to that occasion, she was participating in the Thiruvathira. I had to wait for another 10 Min to see her. But she didn't wait for finishing the thiruvathira, she came almost early beside of me to talk. Actually we are seeing each other after 8 years of gap. But still we had contact each other through calls and FB. By the time I also found time to speak with her brother.
Its become dinner time. I heard some sounds of raining outside. I went out and watch, Yes! Its raining. I didn't gave much stress on that as I had the rain coat. After having dinner, I again went near to her to say a final good bye from that occasion. That time too its raining. With a mind of "I can handle this" I started to take the rain coat from the box.
But I become stunned!!!!
I had only coat and no pant.
I forget to take.
Then I thought How I can protect my remaining half from the rain.
By this time rain got stronger and stronger.
When rain become little weak, I left from that occasion
I driven till I get the new shelter from another strong rain.
Lightening is also started and raining got more stronger. So I thought it will be better, if I wait somewhere so that I can leave when the rain get weaker. Then the time become 10.00 pm. I got a shelter at Ankamally.
In a small shopping complex.
I parked my aviator in a place. As lightening get more stronger I moved to 1 st floor of that building. By that time I messaged to dad that i will be late as i am posted @ Ankamally, because of rain and lightening. After few minutes later I got two messages from my dad, telling not to ride the bike in rain. Another messages is about whether I had my dinner. I said yes.
Time become 11.00 pm till there was no change in the intensity of raining and lightening. That was the strongest rain in that season. I tried many times to take the aviator and ride to my home. But the fear on lightening made me to stop doing that.
Then I thought to sleep for sometime, and I found one place for that.
But when I tried to sleep, I felt something strange is happening in my body.
I felt like something is burning in my heart.
Which later stopped me from sleeping.
I felt that again and again, I just thought What will be that"
A question I asked myself, which I can't answered.
Time become 11.30pm , that burning become lightening in my heart.
Lightening in both inside and outside. Road become full of water. Current was also gone.
My mind started to tell me that " Go, Go, Go"
But lightening was still there. After 12 pm i saw any Lightening outside. I slowly walked to ground floor. I decided go to home. I started journey from Ankamlly at 12.15 am. I ride very slowly with my aviator.
At 12.45 am I reached home. i called dad in phone telling I am waiting outside to enter into the home. I saw Dad was in usual attitude, while he opened the door. But he told me one thing.
"Where was you?, Mom was crying. What was the need for you to go for this marriage, as she is not at all going to contact you after the marriage."
I thought Dad was telling this much to trigger me.
After saying that much, dad went to sleep.
But Mom come outside. In a gloomy face.
I saw tears in her eyes for the first time.
When I saw her more closer, I thought" Yes! She was crying that too for me".
I don't had any words to say at that moment.
She told me something which I am not remembering.
But there is one thing which I can't forget...The Tears
That was the situation where I can see the love of a mother to her child in the form of tears.
I slowly walked to upstairs. That time too I was thinking about that tears.
Then I realized one more thing. The change I felt in my body and heart during the wait at shopping complex was this. It was due to this tears i felt like something is burning in my heart.
When you feels something is burning in your heart, its sure that someone who is loving you, is crying for you.
" In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."